Memory Father came home late He didn’t say good evening Mother was concerned with her children She didn’t pay attention to him The children enjoyed her care They didn’t pay attention that he didn’t say good evening He had his hands clasped behind him had talked to the rain in the harvested fields behind the woodsman’s cabin He had a double barrel shotgun across his shoulder He stood near the window alone and when a strong lightning strike lit the glass I saw the cross of the window incised in his forehead Perhaps we learned of that separation tonight perhaps the same cross is incised since then in the lit wall of our silence
Sadness of the Dusk The roses of the dusk bloomed again tonight golden, rosy, and purple they faded tonight shedding their leaves as I viewed them every evening and every time I drink their fragrant dew from their bloomed dawn I get intoxicated in their soft and last breath I consume each joy to its best. Yet upon gazing the dusk tonight, I thought of our love, that someday it will end and when the roses of the dusk bloomed golden, rosy, and purple as they faded tonight shedding their leaves this evening I got saddened.
The 25th Year of his Life He goes to the tavern quite often where they met last month. He asked, but they had nothing to tell him. From their words, he understood that he had met with a completely unknown person, one of the many unknowns and questionable youthful faces that passed through there. However, he goes to the tavern quite often, at night, and he sits and stares at the entrance, he stares at the entrance until he gets tired. Perhaps he may walk in. Perhaps he may come tonight. For nearly three weeks, he has done this. His mind has become sick with lust. The kisses have stayed on his mouth. All his flesh suffers constantly from the desire. The touch of that body is all over him. He wants to make love to him again. It is understood that he tries not to reveal himself. But sometimes he just doesn’t care. After all, he knows what he’ll get himself into, and he is okay with it. It is not unlikely that this life of his will get him into a disastrous scandal.
…honour due to the ancient beauty and I asked the primeval wisdom about the absurd way of modern life and I was told by the eternal soul of the immortals that consumerism had taken modern life in its grip and I noticed the empty glances of the young women and men that only knew of lust and sexual pleasure then I realized the destiny of the anchorite was meant for me, and I asked whether in a future time, the ancient beauty could be restored, and the virgin of the Parthenon shed tears seeing the tourists flocking like harpies and inauspicious signs of modern life that I searched without finding any resolution nor catharsis among the yellow-haired tourists. Without fear, I asked the ancient beauty but I received no answer to please my soul.
The bottle had been opened but little drunk from it. “As you can see, I haven’t been overindulging.” He pulled the cork out of the neck, poured two glasses and handed one to Caitlin. “Thank you, Padraig.” As Caitlin placed the glass of wine on the table beside her, she noticed an old, soiled envelope. “This is addressed to my father,” she said, turning to look at Padraig. “Yes, your father gave it to me when I left Corrymore to go to university.” “You’ve kept it all this time?” Caitlin idly picked up the envelope. “Yes. Seven years I’ve had it. You can read the letter if you wish.” “No, not if it’s personal.” “No, it is nothing private or secret that you have no right to read. It is addressed to your father after all, not to me.” Padraig took the envelope from Caitlin, removed the letter from inside and unfolded it. “It makes for rather disturbing reading though.” Intrigued, Caitlin accepted the letter from Padraig and started to read with difficulty the untidy scrawl in which the letter was written. It was dated “Kyle of Lochalsh, Ross and Cromarty, Scotland, 11th March, 1902.” Caitlin turned to the last of the letter’s several pages; it was signed by Dr. Hamish Graham. Dear Mr MacLir, Thank you for your letter of 2nd ult. I apologise for my tardy reply but my practice has been busy of late, as is not unusual at this time of year. You requested any information I might have concerning the boy Padraig, over and above what little I was able to communicate to you during our brief meeting in November. You tell me that you have formally adopted Padraig as your son, so I can appreciate your desire to learn more about the laddie. However, until the month of July, 1899, we knew very little, not even his surname which he refused to divulge for fear, I believe, of being returned to the care of his uncle from which he and his mother had been so cruelly expelled. That part of Padraig’s unhappy history you are already familiar with. What transpired in the month of July following Padraig’s arrival in Kyle was a disturbing court case in which a farm labourer from a community twelve statute miles from Plockton, a man of well-established bad character, was tried and convicted to hang for the brutal rape and strangulation of a vagrant woman who had been given permission to sleep in the hay in a barn belonging to this man’s employer. At the rapist’s trial, about which I read in several newspapers, both local and national, it was revealed that the woman’s father, the Rev. Magnus MacArtan,
the day passes the hour passes society laughs the excuses are retained yet, the one who committed the crime and went to sleep didn’t sense that dawn came and he woke up and walked about in the horrible darkness of death (his mouth is already full of dirt) and of the one who lied and acted unjustly and slapped they will pay for it and their children will do so too up to the fifth generation there is God hearts and kidneys are examined and next to the crippled justice of man the Fury hides nested deep in the guilty man merciless and unforgiving who doesn’t care about officialities and titles that good life brings but in God’s name, it doesn’t care and it punishes harshly the brainless and timid who commit
Heat Wave Soft island hills lapping on sea froth cicadas fire up their endless arias come close to me, you said, stand before me like Hermes a naked graceful cypress so that I’ll keep you in my eyes for the long winter days when we’ll be apart moments I’ll yearn for your warmth do come to me, I beg you let me touch your skin the day is fiery and unbearable like the body’s conflagration
The Initiate The initiate dressed in white always dwells in caves and the oleanders behind him will turn red the pebbles will be sprinkled with holy rain and the whole gorge that follows. I also go near with my serpent-self the estuary of passion. my soles, the last lovers, carry me lightly as if I had no heaviness in my consciousness. The one who attracts me stops, thin, dressed in white and having a ponytail; he smells a strong odor like devil rosemary while he exhumes the beautiful fragrance of a dead angel. The leafage of the carob-tree hides something quivering and invisible felt only by that quivering and invisible sense that we have inside us. The initiate is very thin; his pants only balloon a little in the front and a little in the back while airy flesh fills his shirt. The sponsor of earth lowered me, with the unanswered questions in my tongue, to a cave that instead of a mouth had a hole in the sky. Under it stood the provider of the inconceivable who milked the light-blue with his palms turned upwards. He stirred a little; was perhaps the unforeseen from above that pushed him or the earth, slave of precision that shook him from his foundations?
Locked Door The Saturday is bitter in the neighborhood evening when the street organ player turns the corner and some music notes are left in the mud of the road, like the wet wooden shoes along the narrow pathway between the migrant shacks. The hours of the evening are counted by that old watch we had placed in the chest of the dead woman with her leftover woolen cloths. At midnight the alarm woke us up playing its familiar rough music — it was like a child buried alive who was hitting the sealed casket with his small hands. When we were children the candles with the purple ribbons and gold letters scared us a lot; for this we were so sad when evening came because the sun-downs, seen from the balcony of our house in the island, looked like purple ribbons. And we were afraid of sleep since we felt that someone locked us up and we didn’t have keys. And if they would forget to open for us and if we couldn’t talk like the old woman Raken? However we listened to the adults talking at the dining room and a ribbon of light from the lamp had fallen under the door. Then we weren’t afraid. Now the mayor, they said, went to present the keys of the city. Don’t expect anyone to open anymore. Now you have to take care of it alone. We have to break down the door. We’ll manage it, because our love is stronger than our loneliness.
Twilight If I wasted my life, it was because I was a different age from the correct one, and now I’m confused; I don’t know whether I’m at the end or the beginning, whether I have to leave or return, which path to follow and where to go. After all, evening has come and the dogs bark, stopping the passersby at the borders of the unsaid.