XXI We who started out on this pilgrimage looked at the broken statues we lost ourselves and said life is not so easily lost that death has unfathomable ways and his own special justice; that when we died standing on our feet like brothers inside the stone united in toughness and weakness the ancient dead have escaped the circle and have been reborn and smile in a peculiar silence.
Libeccio The anemograph caught fire confused wondering which direction to adopt Southeastern explosion or southwestern heatwave that gallops over the dunes of Africa and steady charges to come and engulf your body to explain its mysticism languorous upward pressure promiscuous desire lingering over the jasmine petals and on your lascivious curves while the midnight cock knowing the magic of lust under the moon’s direction calls his first lover and lost in the fire of your body, you moan and beg the north wind to come and rescue you
She could barely restrain herself from making a second public accusation. “You might get the answer to your question if you asked our friend, Gregorio,” I replied, looking at Gregorio instead of Josefa. Gregorio immediately understood. He grabbed Josefa by the arm to forcibly remove her. I stood rooted to the ground, hoping he would drag her away and that could be the end of it. But Josefa remained feisty and broke away from him, running to me with a pained expression. She leaned forward and whispered devilishly in my ear, so that only I could hear. “I know what happened at the river,” she said. “I know everything. I know you let her touch you!” I jerked back from her, as though she had slapped me in the face. The servant, she had seen me, and Josefa could barely contain the power she had over me. There was no point in trying to deny anything. I walked away, horrified by Josefa’s misplaced jealousy, and dumbfounded by my inability to eradicate her secret knowledge. Right then, I decided I did not want to learn whether Apacuana had bitten Josefa or not. There was a part of me that hoped she had.
In the morning, when Losada was notified of the incident, he preferred to dismiss it as mere female hysteria rather than discern which party was responsible. It was the prudent decision: to concentrate on completing his negotiations with the cacique Chacao. After mass, Losada ordered the captives brought to him and untied. “We want to be your friends. You see we have not harmed you,” Losada told Chacao. “We can decide to do this in peace, or we can do it in war. We are powerful. To show you my goodwill, I give you all your people back.” Chacao was a middle-aged man with deep lines running down the sides of his nose to his mouth in a permanent scowl. He did not answer, just stood there, hands folded in front of him. It was important for him not to appear grateful for Losada’s benevolence.
nterior stunned her, and she felt a twinge of guilt. This must be terribly expensive. Why had Cam chosen such a place? To impress her? But he appeared at ease in their surroundings, was recognized by both the maitre’de and the wine steward, and had obviously been here often. Determined to enjoy the evening and the company of the man who had lavished attention on her since the moment he had appeared at the door of her apartment, she settled back in the delightfully comfortable chair and relaxed. Until the wine was brought and their order taken, they made small talk about the hospital, his parents and her family in Emblem. Then Cam smiled and raised his glass. “To our meeting again, and to our future meetings. Together we’ll set the Holy Cross on fire.” He touched his glass to hers, then put it down and looked at her soberly. “I want to ask you something – at the risk of having you tell me to mind my own business.” “Ask away.” She knew what was coming, but her spirits were too high tonight to be dashed by the mention of Morley’s name. “Are you … that is, are you still seeing Morley?” Tyne raised her glass to her lips, and looked steadily into Cam’s eyes. “No,” she said. “Oh.” He appeared baffled by her brief, straightforward answer as if he had expected her to simper and evade his question. Well, she was through simpering over Morley Cresswell. He had dumped her, and that was that … all in the past … over … done. And why should she care? She did not need a stubborn, pig-headed, unsympathetic farmer in her life. Was she not here, in this posh restaurant, being wined and dined by the handsomest intern the Holy Cross had ever had the honour of admitting to its program? And was he not looking at her with the fondest admiration? So she did not need Morley Cresswell. Goodbye, good riddance. Tyne put her glass on the table with a thump. And to her horror and distress she burst into tears.
“Yes, I do. I’ve been in this position for almost five years and since my first month, one November night, around nine o’clock I was paid a visit by the Head Master of this facility, Father Jerome, who, that night for the first time but not the last violated me in the most disgusting way; He has been doing this occasionally, whenever he would feel up to it, no questions asked no permissions granted…” “Father Jerome” Anton talked to himself, “somehow the impression I got for the man, the first time I met him, was that he would never take no for an answer…” Mary turned a little so her eyes would dive deep in Anton’s and smiled at him. Her smile seemed forced, stressed smile, yet it was her smiling lips that Anton looked at and enjoyed their shape and promising tomorrow. She took his hand before she continued. “Yes Sister Gladys and Father Jerome are lovers, for a long time, I’d say from the day of his arrival here, they seem to match in many different ways and the way our rooms are lined upstairs, you’d notice when you come for some reason upstairs and spend time you’ll realize that her room is next to Sister Helen’s and next to hers is mine, all the men’s rooms are on the opposite side of the upstairs hallway with Father Jerome’s in the middle. He’d just walk out of his and within ten or so feet he accesses Sister Gladys’ room or mine.” She stopped and took a breath, the freshness of the August day just outside the truck window and the freshness of the slow flowing water of the Thompson River blew certain moist on her face moistening it; she pulled Anton closer to her and kissed him. “Sister Gladys followed Father Jerome each time he paid a visit to me and since she saw me as a competitor who I never have been nor would I ever want to become, in fact each time Father Jerome came to my room, he plainly and simply raped me,
Dark Story You’re far away and I hear you singing a stuttering song of the ones you love bloody songs with abscesses and tumors. Birds poke on your face snakes lurk in your eyes I’ll come to drink your sickly kisses convince you with heinous games. I know of a train destined for nowhere, a bus that will take you away, I know the music that blows up mountains, I know the red fish that will devour you.
Of course all these were somehow vague perhaps even inexplicable for the ones who raise their glass emphatically over the table without seeing who holds it until slowly the everyday use makes us mortal; thus I always tried to look elsewhere when the doorbell rang and when everything was quietened: where is the host? Why is he hiding? I leaned on the table that I wouldn’t fall; then bowing my head I opened the door and followed my path. And at night, dinner time, in horror, I listened to them narrating their stories that in a way silenced the dark remote outside — there where we had lived.
Ink He added a little ink to the machine, the words, oh God, how difficult to form, letter by letter put on a line, the consonants on their appropriate places to underscore where the voice rises and where they bow their heads, when his eyes don’t help well, as they did back then when he started as an apprentice typist, he hopes to avoid the painful mistakes of misspelling words which, using a lens he starts his daily battle against errors and what’s the value of an accent in front of a word and that perispomeni* heroes that fell when the language was simplified and the old typist turns from his machine and stooping over his soup bowl he can only see ink in his broth, the ink he just added to the insatiable printing machine *_______ accent in the shape of a flat line over a vowel
Liam Dooley was thirty-eight, going on thirty-nine. His fair, wavy hair was receding alarmingly at the temples. He believed a baldness was spreading at the back of his head also, like a threadbare elbow in an old jacket, but he could not see for sure in the mirror and he would have been embarrassed to ask. There was no one he could have asked in any case without feeling foolish. His parents were dead; his sister, after her twenty-first birthday, had moved to Belfast to marry the father of her daughter; and Liam lived alone in two rooms, a kitchen and a living-bedroom that the Church had built onto the back of the new school as accommodation for the teacher, but which could be converted to additional classrooms when the growing number of pupils made the extension necessary. Liam’s baldness and his forties were both approaching rapidly. Both inexorable. He could always have lied about his age to strangers who did not know him but he could not pass himself off as twenty-eight or twenty-nine when his hairline was almost as far back as his ears and threatening to meet up with the circle of skin he felt was spreading at his crown. He had to face facts. Liam Dooley’s youth was irretrievably lost. Lost, not squandered. Liam was no profligate. He was no philanderer. His intimacy with women extended only to walking one or two of them home from church. Once he went as far as holding Molly Noonan’s hand as they strolled home from a choir practice but he could not bring himself to embrace her, nor to give her a kiss as he left her at her door. He wanted to. He wanted to very much. But he was timorous and hesitant. Fearful of rejection, he held back. Molly did not ask him in for tea. Nor did she ever walk home with him again. Sean O’Sullivan, a tenor with large, yellowing teeth, escorted her home after that. Then Molly got pregnant, and she and Sean ran away to Belfast and were never seen again. Liam often thought of Molly Noonan, of the pert looks she flicked his way, of the teasing scent from her red hair as he stood behind her in the choir, of the smiles she gave him when he entered Lizzie Martin’s shop where she worked. He remembered the late spring evening when they had last walked home together. They had paused where Killeenagh Burn trips down
He spoke at service club meetings. He lectured at the college. He played golf as he always had, seldom and badly. It was a way of socializing; he detested the game. Sam restrained himself from meddling in the affairs of Winter and Franklin; he promised his partner and his wife that he would keep hands off the firm. Despite his efforts to stay busy, the boredom of retirement began to overtake him. Pete Torgerson’s predecessor as mayor asked Sam to fill the unexpired term of a full-time municipal court judge who died. The term had less than a year to run. When Sam told her about it, Liza was reluctant and then, the more she thought about it, relieved. Sam accepted the judgeship. On the bench and in chambers, he discovered in himself gravity and patience, qualities that during his years of arguing before judges he never imagined he had. He enjoyed the work. Before the term ended, he announced himself a candidate for a superior court seat. The bar association endorsed him. He won easily and was nearing the end of his second term. There was nothing official about it, but Sam Winter had become a sort of guardian to Poodie. In 1934 when the bank foreclosed on the Thorps, Jeremy Stone asked him to come up with a legal guarantee that no one would throw Poodie off the property. On Sam’s advice, the bank gave Poodie a life estate in the cabin. That’s where he was now, reading, no doubt, Sam thought. The little man came to the door in his shorts and sandals, grinning, holding Breasted’s History of Egypt, a book the judge had always meant to get around to. “Listen, Poodie” Sam began. Poodie’s grin expanded. He cupped his hand behind his ear and cocked his head, eyes intent on Sam’s face. “Oh, for heaven’s sake. Sorry, Poodie. I mean, we have to discuss something. It’s about the mayor.” The grin diminished. Poodie spoke a couple of sentences. Sam hunched his shoulders and spread his hands. “Better get your pad and pencil,” he said. Poodie invited the judge inside.