Heavenly Flow Time reflections of stars in the eye of Being a fleeting image-like existence thundering silence between myself and death Eternity the constant movement of nothing something sinful breathes these days no one returns to innocence for something that isn’t there what the infinite searches for and it spreads, whirls slipping in space-time that constantly births what could be beyond the heavenly flow nostalgia for what was when it was expelled from the warmth of the obscurity of uterus.
back into the bay, “we ought to try a power gurdy. I don’t know if it would control the lines any better, but it would speed things up.” “I don’t trust them. The hand gurdy is fine.” “But, Dad…..” “Peter. I said the hand gurdy will do for us.” “Look, I’ll pay for it. If you don’t like it, it goes, and it doesn’t cost you anything.” “No. I said no.” The steel of stubborness was in the old man’s voice. “That’s the end of it.” Evenings when the boat was in port, Peter rarely had supper with his folks. He roamed. After midnight, they heard his quiet steps on the stairs to his room. “You must say something to him, Ivar,” his mother said. “He’s going to find trouble.” “He’s a grown man, Hilda.” Then, after a few weeks back on the boat and more suggestions, Pete argued with Ivar about how to do the work, occasionally at first, and after a couple of years nearly without ceasing. The change in his son troubled Ivar Torgerson. A scowl seemed engraved on the face of the young man. Eagerness for work transmuted into a flow of resentment and quarreling. He swore at people who got in his way when he walked on the dock. Ivar heard reports of Peter picking fights in bars and tormenting drunken Indians on the waterfront in Seattle. He heard worse too, things he would not listen to, about Peter and sailors, about the kinds of things some sailors do. At Christy’s Tavern, he knocked Hans Karlson flat when Karlson began to tell him what he’d heard. Ivar never asked his son where he went on his nights out alone. He could not bring himself to mention what he knew Karlson and the others whispered about. On a Sunday evening, Ivar and Hilda strolled down the hill toward the bay, relishing the softness of the springtime air and the quietness of the streets. They looked in store windows, admired flower beds, ambled along the dock. “Ivar, you’re headed toward the boat. This is Sunday. Come on, we’re turning around right now.”