Tasos Livaditis – Poems, Volume II

Long-listed for the 2023 Griffin Poetry Awards

If, one day, I manage to escape, I’ll open a small
store in a side street
to sell bitter things: tiny taxidermy animals, biographies
of poor people,
eyelids that never closed and of course, unthoughtful
spirit lamps;
on the entrance I’ll write, “pay the blind man on the
opposite side, he’s the only one who knows”. During
the evening I’ll sit by the door with my black hat and
a patisserie tray on hand for whoever can understand.
And perhaps that funny old woman may return with her
faint smile held with pins
“I’ve brought it to you” she will say, “she has her
own house” and perhaps she means uncertainty or
the dead woman or as the Lord may have ordered
since the preacher kept on crying out “brothers”
and untie Eudokia “silence” she says to me “what’s
this and put the wall back to where it belongs”.
Now I’m sad that you won’t be able to write to me,
my good friend,
the envelopes and writing paper are expensive indeed
for a dead person (who they unthoughtfully bury
in the dampness)
yet when I usually think of you
it’s as if I get dressed in all the black ashtrays and
your mother, let them call her crazy because she always
holds an umbrella,
since it always rains in the world now, as an old poet
would have said, the real stories are very rare.
God help us.

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Orange

Hierodules
Past midnight
in the cloyed atmosphere
of the casino’s underbelly
things were not as they seemed
I sat at a slot machine
trying to synchronize my mind
to the machine’s rhythm
brain balancing precariously
between mild intoxication
and growing inebriation
alcohol consumption evident
on limbs and a loose mind
chasing the elusive hit as
I heard an alluring, sultry voice.
“Hi, baby, how are you?”
Young blonde hooker passed by me
brushing her voluptuousness
languidly against my back
voice as sweet as honey
dripping with innocence and
I, in my mid-sixties
took this as a compliment
even though it came from
the promiscuous and cunning lips
of the young blonde hooker
my brain reeled
in the clutches of alcohol
philosophical thoughts
and unexpected comparisons
The young hierodule
for a few dollars
could provide my sexual release
the casino
for a fistful of dollars
sold me the ephemeral joy
of machine combinations
the luck of the draw
and hope
and the other hierodule
the greatest
which for a few dollars more
sells to its innumerable Johns
the safety of Heaven.

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Redemption

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insisted, so his uncle and auntie said their farewells at home. Eleni
and Hermes met in a nightclub a couple of years ago on the island of
Ios, where they were both vacationing. Hermes loved to play with her
blonde hair, and he mostly enjoyed letting his eyes dive deep into her
blue eyes.
He walked toward the deck bar, passing by the pretty tourist
girl sunbathing. It was not easy to walk along with all these people
sitting or lying around on the deck.
He ordered a cold coffee and glanced around. Next to him was
an old man drinking his lemonade: tough features, wrinkles on
his face, white hair, black circles around his eyes. The old man felt
Hermes’ glance and turned toward him:
“And where are you from, young man?”
“From around here, Uncle,” Hermes answered, imitating the
old man’s accent. It was customary to address an older man as “Uncle”
when one didn’t know his name. Whenever coming to the island,
Hermes liked to talk with an accent close to the locals to conform to
their ways as much as possible.
His coffee was brewed, and he took a slow sip to check it out.
The old man observed his ritual manner, satisfied.
“Could I ask you something, Uncle?” Hermes felt the need to
kill the silence between them.
“Sure. What is it, my son?”
“The island, why is it called Crete?”
The old man raised his eyebrows. Not many people asked this
kind of question.
“We call it Crete because it means wines and meats.”
Hermes was surprised. He never knew. Did this mean that this
island used to be fertile and fruitful, and the people never had to
worry about their food?
The old man turned and asked him.
“What do you do in Athens, my son?”
“I attend the university, Uncle. I am graduating this year.”
“Oh, you are a sand pebble then.”

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Arrows

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Guacaipuro surveyed the damage.
“Your god,” he panted, “is evil.”
Then he seemed to see something in the shadows of the bushes
illuminated by the firelight, and all distress lifted from his
countenance. He reached out, but life left him at that moment. He
collapsed onto Urquía, his face buried in her bosom. I gawked at
them. He had trusted me with her life, and there she was, dead. And
he saw her die.
I was on my feet. Where had all the air gone? I gasped, trying to
suck it in, and stumbled away. My knees buckled, and I held myself
by the middle. A shout emerged from the centre of my soul, a long
throat-shredding, “No!”
She hadn’t converted either.
The Spaniards stepped back. I would have liked to see them try
and touch his body, chop off his head and take it as a trophy.
Something stopped them. Horror, I guess. As they fled uphill,
leaving only desolation behind, I felt Benjamin’s big hand on my
shoulder.
“Coming?”
I shot him a loathing look; pain choked me, tears stung my eyes,
my head throbbed. I saw in the fleeting expression that crossed his
face that that was the last thing he expected from me. He strode
away, looking back over his big, swaying shoulders a couple of
times. It was not his fault, of course, but at that moment he became
the Spaniards, a group I did not want to belong to any longer. My
reaction was unjust, and I knew it, but couldn’t bring myself to be
like Jesus.
Had I ever?
The next hours were filled with the numbness of incredulity. I just
sat there until the hut was nothing more than a glowing mass of
smouldering thatch. Desolation after the storm. Not a breath of hope
in the air. Nothing but pain and sorrow. Fragments of the person I…

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Entropy

Behind the family tree of eternity
retreats the golden fleece and
the tragedy of the distant signal
to the center of the inexplicable
the heart of zero becomes One
having always rained flashes in there
tides with enigmatic wavelengths emigrate
the alpha-beta of wandering intensifies
ink made of stardust
groping on the hair of the woman
it writes words
since the time she was a girl
along with the hieroglyphics of dusk
quay of the night
lampposts of Eros
galloping of innocence
I walk next to me, over the piers
emotions flow in eternity
tomorrow is already upon us
what can one decipher?
Each star is one word on
the path to the labyrinth
an old wound that doesn’t heal
secret keys to the galaxy
the covenant of kites
many goodbyes thrown out
goodbyes without any recipient

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Troglodytes

Epode III
Heavens still reside in the ghetto’s heart
yet logos stay imprisoned in the maze
of a code and its ever-fast whip
like an ape standing outside
the big door of salvation
bigots holding him at bay
and the crystal stars on the horizon
sing the hymeneal again.
Logos as in a maze of twisted minds
is torn between a lustful moon
and the freshness of a spring song
light of freedom in sunless cells
and headmaster still walks around
headless or
heartless
as he’s commanded
by his insatiable greed
who sees value in the control
in the protocol and in the fear
fed to the mortals like manna.
Troglodytes of the Middle Ages.

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The Unquiet Land

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…lack of ambition contrasted remarkably with that of Clifford Hamilton who had different aims on human brains. Yet when Caitlin thought about it, she could not avoid the conclusion that maybe Liam’s desire to fill young brains with learning was more worthy, if less prestigious, than Clifford Hamilton’s desire to open them up for medical probing. She admired Liam all the more for his altruism. He was indeed a true disciple of his idol, Father Padraig.
Beyond the school the pebble-dashed, two-storey rectory stood back a bit from the lane. Lamplight shone through the window of Padraig’s room upstairs; the rest of the house was in darkness. Padraig shared the rectory with Father Donagh Costello, the priest of the neighbouring parish “over the bridge” in Aughnashannagh. The pious widow, Brid O’Flaherty, lived in the same house as servant and cook to the two parish priests.
Caitlin paused outside the rectory, then passed by and climbed the rough-cut steps to the church. Aligned along the ridge, Our Lady Star of the Sea church occupied a spread of flat ground covered with the same beach-pebbles as the footpath from the road. Caitlin paused in the doorway at the west end of the church, stayed for a moment by the clarity and peace of the evening. She gazed out over the gravestones and the grass to the errant line of the cliff-top. Dark grey was the sea beyond, and blue the sky above. The blueness of the sky paled to limpid opalescence where the sun had set. No sound. No movement. Only a shiver in the short grass where the breeze blew across it. Inland the evening shadows darkened the purple hills, the green fields, the grey stone walls, the yellow flowers of spreading whins. Lights in farmhouse windows twinkled like stars. Thin twines of smoke uncoiled from cottage chimneys.
Caitlin felt a surge of joy within her. No-one knows how much I love this land, she thought.
She opened the church door with a click of the latch and closed it gently behind her. The hush of the evening out of doors deepened between the white walls and the dark, varnished roof-beams of the church. Three small windows high up along each wall admitted light by day but they were gloomy now. Below each window a picture hung. Padraig had told Caitlin their stories. Along the right-hand wall that overlooked the sea the first picture showed Jesus calling the disciples Andrew and John as they worked at their nets by the shore; the second showed Him in a crowded boat ordering the stormy waters to be calm; and the third showed Him walking upon the sea, holding an outstretched hand to Peter. Along the opposite wall the first picture was of Jesus pulling ears of corn as He walked through a field with…

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Swamped

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…people in the movies revive others in these situations, so he plugs the
boy’s nose and blows into his mouth with all his might, once, twice,
and then asks Anthony to compress the chest, until after a minute or
so the boy gasps and expels water from his mouth as he comes to his
senses. Anthony and Eteocles turn him face down as he continues to
cough and spit out water, and in a few moments he is well enough to
recognize the women.
“Mom” he says quietly, looking up at one of the two women. She
sobs and embraces him.
The other woman can’t stop thanking and praising the two young
heroes. She takes a couple of figs from her bag, peals them, and gives
one to each of the boys. Eteocles and Anthony bite into the sweet
fruit and thank the woman.
As they walked back to their football game, Anthony looks at his
cousin as well as all the other boys who crowd around and ask Eteocles
where he learned to resuscitate drowning victims.
“At the movies,” Eteocles tells them, his chest swelling with pride
and happiness. He has brought someone back to life.

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Ugga

one
One thousand years of darkness
one thousand years of twilight
one thousand lonely writers
weren’t enough
to hide knowledge
one thousand painters
didn’t bring a Renaissance
tens of thousands of sculptors
the ancient Hellenes too
idolized the body
and the Fourth Racism
suddenly appeared

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Introspection

Daring
The man with the thick eyeglasses and the gigantic moustache dared his creator and challenged his claim over the sickly thin body, an auspicious gift could return to its maker at any time; death never took hold of his undying soul and creative pneuma, the man sitting at the end of the dining room, of whom the other patrons of the humble pension hashed words of wonder and awe, who could have done it or other wondering phrases people say before the superhuman mind, the Übermensch of his creator, who dared challenge his maker and who reached the ultimate step of the abyss and dared it too, the man who each time the hammer struck him the echo of his unyielding strength reciprocated with a thud more deafening than the first, the man who stood upon the human greatness and made it stronger and more enduring, the man with the thick eyeglasses and the gigantic moustache sitting at the edge of the dining room and staring at the people eating or in the hallway, no need to look outside the window, his battle was always waged against his internal enemy, himself

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