In Turbulent Times

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‘Not capable enough, Clifford. Caitlin needs a doctor. Mother Ross says so herself. She’s worried. Mrs Starkey says she’ll give you anything you need from the doctor’s surgery.’
‘No, it’s all right,’ said Clifford. ‘I have everything I’m likely to need here.’ He dithered. Then he drew a deep breath and said, ‘Very well, Michael, I’ll come right away. Let me get my stuff together and put my rain-gear on.’
He climbed back upstairs to his room.
Hurry, Clifford, hurry, hurry, Michael kept saying to himself. For God’s sake, hurry.
At last Clifford came down again, buttoning his raincoat. He carried a black bag in one hand. He shouted down the hall, ‘Timmins, we’re leaving. I’ll be back in an hour or two. Don’t lock the gates.’ Then he turned to Michael and said with a levity lost on the distraught father-to-be, ‘Now, let’s be off to the rescue of this fair damsel in distress.’
He followed Michael to the main road and climbed into the trap. The shafts tipped up, the harness jingled and creaked, the pony snorted and tossed its wet head. Michael jerked the reins a couple of times and shouted. He turned the pony and trap around, and off they went, slowly at first, until the pony found its stride.
God, what a miserable night to be born, Clifford thought. He was nervous. He had already delivered three babies, but they were easy, straightforward births, the first two under supervision. This one sounded difficult. A breech birth at least. Perhaps a Caesarean. He would rather have kept clear of this ordeal but found it impossible to refuse. He had a reputation in the village where many already regarded him as the best new doctor in Belfast. The village was proud of him. This birth would enhance his reputation or shatter it like a dropped mirror. Clifford was worried in case it might go badly. As the rain-beaten cart bounced and swayed towards the MacLir house, Clifford frantically recalled everything he ought to know about breech births and Caesarean sections. By the time he and Michael arrived in the yard behind the house Clifford was confident he could handle any complication. His reputation was assured. It was not the village that was looking on, he thought with typical self-importance, it was the world.
As he rushed across the farmyard to the back door, Clifford slipped on a wet, muddy cobblestone and almost fell. He only just reached the door in time to check his forward fall with his free outstretched hand. That frightened him. Tonight he could not afford to be clumsy.

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Savages and Beasts

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Smiling from one side of his mouth to the other George
placed the plate on their table.
“Are you on duty this morning, Mary?” George asked her.
“No, not today,” she answered.
“Why don’t you go to the personnel eating room?” George
wondered aloud.
“I don’t like eating there, besides I never craved the full
breakfast…”
“I see,” George added and left them alone; he knew they
liked that.
Sister Helen and Father Peter appeared guiding the kids
in for their porridge. They all followed their lines and took their
seats, boys in one side of the eating area and girls on the other.
The livingness of the kids waked up the place and suddenly
everything seemed to make some sense, the tables, the benches,
the kitchen counters were the food was placed, the walls which
tuned their ears to grab whispers and soft words spoken between
the little savages against the stern voices of their two supervisors
who kept on saying, “quiet, quiet, take your food and sit down”
while they paced from one side of the hallway to the other perusing
both sides, make sure no one of these kids did anything that
they would disapprove.
Suddenly in all quietness a upheaval that broke the utter
silence, Marcus, who else would do such a thing, as he was horsing
around in his place he pushed the boy next to him with the
result of some porridge spilled on the table. The boy started
making a commotion, Father Peter rushed to their area and
ordered Marcus to get up take his bowl with his porridge and
step on the hallway, which the youth did, as always but soon as
he stepped in the open area between the two rows of benches a
hard slap from the hand of the priest struck the back of his neck;

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Still Waters

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The circulating nurse in Theatre Three opened a package of suture
material and dropped the sterile contents onto Tyne’s scrub table.
“Better hurry, Tyne, Doctor Bentall is already scrubbing up. And he
has an intern with him, so you’ll probably have to hold the new boy’s
hand as well as Doctor Bentall’s.”
“Oh, Marjory, no one has to hold Doctor Bentall’s hand.” Tyne
chuckled as she secured the suture needle onto a holder.
“Maybe not, darn it. But a lot of us would like to, eh?” Marjory
Andrews’ eyes sparkled above her gauze mask as she opened a sterile
pack of sponges and handed them to Tyne.
“Not me,” Tyne said.
“Oh no, of course not you. You’re too wrapped up in that farmer
boy back in … where is it? Emblem?”
Tyne felt the colour rise in her cheeks, and was thankful for the
mask that covered most of her face. Pain stabbed at her chest, a pain
she had experienced daily since graduation night. Only during working
hours could she exorcise the ghosts that plagued her with every
thought of Morley. And now, Marjory had to remind her – right at
the start of a major scrub. But the circulating nurse could not know
about the break-up. Only Moe was privy to that information.
Tyne took a pack of abdominal sponges from Marjory. “Okay, let’s
do the count,” she said briskly, putting an end to the frivolous talk.
For the next few hours all the concentration of the two nurses, as
well as that of the student nurse who would soon be joining Tyne at
the scrub table, would be centred on the patient, the surgeon and the
procedure upon which he was about to embark.

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Orange

Methodical
He kept his dreams
ambitiously hidden in his heart
he placed hope in monotony
in a separate crystalline vase and
at the time of the shortest
shadows he walked
to the shore to breathed in
all he could of the endless blue
and after on his irises he painted
the beautiful little cove
the houses, the gleaming,
whitewashed chapel
he blessed them all
with the aroma of oregano
he changed his clothes and
tightly in his palm, he kept
a shiny coin for the lone
ferryman who would take him across.
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Tasos Livaditis – Selected Poems

Escape

He sat on the stool by the front yard; his hands, so clumsy, had already overtaken us “someday they will demolish the house” he says to me “and they’ll discover it.”
And every so often, at the far end of the room, someone wrapped a bed-sheet around himself; it was the time he escaped until
the bed-sheet fell empty on the floor and we had a friend forever.
In the stations the immigrants were lined and, hiding inside their
their overcoats, they waited for the voyage like a dog on its death bed.
And uncle Elias, our rich relative, years after his death, still stood on the sidewalk; however he didn’t turn to look at us, “uncle” I said “since you knew, why you came back?”, “I can’t fall asleep” he says to me “I still have to lose some more.”
I tried to leave but I met the deaf boy on the side street; he was leaning on the wall and he was crying and now there was a small lit chapel on the wall while snow fell outside and passersby drowned in their words.

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Poodie James

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heat of friction on his backside, and his spine raked over the door
jamb. He tried to raise up, but they jerked him backward down the
step and onto the ground. The clubbing began. He wrapped his
arms around his head and tucked into a ball.Two of them straightened
his body by pulling his hands and feet while the biggest man
alternated kicks with blows from a length of wood. The clubs and
boots battered his arms and legs, his torso, his shoulders. The pain
was like fire on his skin. The ache went to the center of his bones.
They let him go, then knocked him off his feet when he got up,
laughing at his contortions when he twisted and thrashed to evade
their clubs.They were killing him, he thought.He was going to die.
Suddenly, the big man was on his back and Engine Fred was on
top of him with a forearm bearing down on his windpipe. Poodie
sat up and saw the other two running down the lane. His head
throbbed. Three more hobos came down along the path from the
jungle. The man on the ground got an arm free, knocked Engine
Fred off balance and was up and running away. He disappeared
into the orchard, headed toward the river. Two of the hobos ran
after him, but came back shaking their heads. It all happened in the
space of a few minutes. The Thorps slept through it, but Engine
Fred told Poodie that he heard a scream. Poodie didn’t know that
he was capable of screaming.
Dan Thorp called the police the next morning. By then, the
hobos had hopped a freight. Poodie could not identify the thugs.
The bruises on his face and body took weeks to heal. Thorp put a
lock on the cabin door. The attack was the worst thing that had
happened to Poodie since his mother died. He lived it over in his
dreams night after night for months. Years later, he still awakened
in fear that the men would come back.
Alice Moore looked up to see Poodie James’s face floating just
above surface of the checkout desk, a stack of books next to it. She
had never seen that face without a smile. She looked at the books;
Howard Carter’s The Discovery of the Tomb of Tutankhamen, three
books about whales, a collection of de Maupassant stories.

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Hours of the Stars

Microscope-Telescope
Rotten old age and dust
ministers the gothic room of Faust
in the lilies a bite of dew
studies the galaxy’s litany
beyond the flow of the Ocean
a planet dies
as if a pomegranate bursts

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Entropy

The Unlearned
The yearning of man to exist somewhere else
detecting the paths of his death
he discovers
a complex soul with many bottoms
the labyrinth he seeks transcends him
light refracts and detaches
in its primeval conviction
as I keep away from the roaring eons
I want to be near something that stirs in silence
for this, tonight,
I’ll read to you about the stars
old hand-writings of eternity
shepherds of ancient meanings that widen
the warmth of wisdom
a wanderer trapped in the enigma
I know
nothing is content
only approaches to the unlearned
between life and death

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The Incidentals

Birthmarks
Old Galanos looks at the endless
blue sea through the cafe window
he gazes at the open gulf and
recalls his barber life: what he
has learned from the details of
each villager’s hair he has cut for
many years, familiar as he was with
every contour, each strange dip,
mole, birthmark, and of course
Demetre’s crazy head, the man who
took part in every demonstration, back
in the 70ies during the hippy movement,
a flower child of that era with a ponytail
only Galanos was allowed to trim
and he recalls, as his glance melts
in the sunny immenseness, that
he too was meant to be included in
the unwritten history of the village
after all, he too did what he was told:
to be a family man, to obey the law,
to be humble and servile
the simple village barber who
now questions why he didn’t dare
unchain himself from the daily gear
and unshackled and free like a smile
he could get the courage to fly up
on the endless sky like an eagle.
Suddenly a few tears appear in his eyes
and trembling like his heart they roll
down his cheeks as the barber brought
his hand there so the other customers
of the café wouldn’t notice his
sentimentality, his emotion since he too
spent his life just to remain there like
a rock, a gravestone upon which they’d
write that he too wrote his story in the
unwritten logs of the merciless time.

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Arrows

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amazement, our eyes locked often, for my face was in darkness and
my eyes half-closed. She somehow sensed my gaze. My heart
rushed a little every time, as if some strange and invigorating
connection had established itself between us.
The men had been tied around a tree, including the boy who
had fought to free Apacuana. I wondered who he was, likely her
brother.
Losada, along with Gregorio and Pánfilo, had entertained himself
in pacifying the Indian boy, but the youth’s courageous rejection of
every kindness didn’t amuse Losada long, and he had ordered him
tied up with the men.
My head throbbed. I was feverish again. I lay with my back to
the fire, concentrating on the frogs and crickets singing their night
song, hoping their music could distract me from my growing
queasiness. The fire crackled as sap pockets exploded, sending
fiery dots into the sky.
The moon was full, though there were some clouds. I was still
learning to read the signs of the sky in this new land. The rainy time
had just begun, and I was surprised at how suddenly the water
poured from the heavens and, just as suddenly, stopped and the
skies cleared.
My head felt ready to burst. I put a hand to my head. A moan of
agony and desperation stuck in my throat, and I sat up, closing my
eyes and swaying with dizziness. My breathing had gone from
heavy and deep to shallow and fast.
I crawled on all fours to the nearest tree and puked bile that made
me shudder with its bitterness. I had nothing in my stomach in the
way of food. A temporary moment of relief came over me, and I sat
with my back against the trunk, blinking owlishly, until I
remembered Apacuana again. What would become of her?
A head popped up in front of me, silhouetted against the fire. It
was Tamanoa. “What is the matter?” he asked. “You are sick again!”
“I’ll be all right in the morning. Don’t worry, I know these pains. I
get them occasionally.”
“What pains? Where does it hurt?”

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