Flame Moth plays with the flame of the candle his fingers touch her fiery skin game of entering and exiting begins body heat-trapping The unsuspected visitors as the enamoured moth dances with the flame And he feathery blows onto her feminine lips captivating moments The light breeze enters to erase the mark that his tongue left onto her clit
With the Group of Seven paintings as a template, he taught himself to paint again, working only on southern landscapes. He took several to the owner of The Golden Key Gallery who placed one in the window and sold it within two days. More sold during the next few months, but then the gallery owner sold his business and Ken was once again without an outlet. Still, he persisted and one day, while sketching the bent shapes of driftwood, in the dunes near the airport, it occurred to him that he could make a profit from the abundance of wood on the beach. He purchased a pickup truck and two chain saws, cut up the wood, wrapped velvet ribbons around the most attractive pieces, and attached a card with his telephone number. He left the wood on the front steps of the city’s grand homes and within days, the orders came in. While he delivered and stacked the firewood, he told the homeowners his stories of the Arctic, and when they asked about his paintings, he would display the canvases he carried in the cab of his truck. The Arctic paintings didn’t sell but the southern landscapes were a hit. He taught himself to become a storyteller, rehearsing every anecdote he had, practising his tone, volume, order of words and, most importantly, his choice of words. Where was the power of the story? His clients listened, but showed little interest, so he made a list of every service club in the city. Would they like a guest speaker at their next meeting? Yes, they would like to hear about the Arctic, and so, Ken did the rounds. Each audience contained a handful of people who showed mild interest – the rest were bored, and often antagonistic. Sometimes he was heckled, and a red tide of anger would creep up from his chest to flush his neck and cheeks. Once someone shouted that he, and the rest of the people there, resented an immigrant telling Canadians how to live in their country and run their lives. “That is hardly what I am doing,” Ken retorted. “I intend no disrespect. I am simply here bringing information from a faraway place.” His words dropped like ragged bits of paper to lie discarded on the floor. Perhaps his stories were so outside the experience of most Canadians that they seemed like tall tales – unlikely and unbelievable. There had to be a better way to tell people about the Arctic but what was it? His father told him that he was involving himself in matters that were none of his business. He was not a citizen of Canada and until he was, he should keep his opinions to himself. He responded that he was only doing what he had learned at his father’s knee, in Portugal. He reminded his father that Ken Sr. had not been a citizen of Portugal and yet he had become deeply involved in the affairs of that country and had worked hard to help the people. The Inuit were human beings in great distress, he said, and he was trying to help.
“Good morning,” Tanya chirped as Joel turned in his sleeping bag. She was standing on the ground beside the truck, her sleeping bag unused. “Morning,” grumbled Joel. “I took care of the chores already,” she said. “The horses are fed and the stalls are cleaned. Are you ready for a cup of coffee?” “Sure. Just give me a couple of minutes to get into my jeans,” Joel replied. Tanya ducked around the corner of the truck and Joel scrambled into his Wranglers. Once Joel and Tanya had found their way to the canteen and were sitting at a table sipping on their morning java, Joel couldn’t help himself and had to ask, “So where did you end up last night?” He hated himself for asking, like he was her father, but like a run-away horse he just couldn’t hold himself back. “We got back around eleven and I went by the trailer to let you know that I was going to stay with the girls, they were good enough to invite me to bunk down in their trailer. You were already sound asleep and it didn’t make sense to wake you. I have to tell you, it really wasn’t too hard of a decision—a hay mattress in the back of a truck or a real mattress and running water, including a shower, in a travel trailer. Sorry Joel, the girls won that one hands down.” “I guess it isn’t any of my business. I shouldn’t have even asked. Sorry about that.”
Searching Have you seen my nest in barn’s upper beam just behind the middle post hid well from predators youthful eyes wondering in an abandoned building this post an observatory for owl and clever wind that dances grasses and her mind as she hunts for her young chicks begging on the beam for evening’s meal as the surprise of elements endures patient meditation on a lower post
Each morning they take a count of us; each evening we count the leftover plates the leftover grief in our eyes as the rain casts the dice with the policemen night falls and the whistles start echoing. Now we want to put our hands in our armpits to look whether a star gleams in the sky, to remember that face against the opening of the door but we can’t remember we have no time to remember we don’t have time but to stand tall and die. My beloved I perhaps feel cold when it rains I perhaps caress the crumbs of memory in my pockets my palms that once held you are still hot but I can’t return. How can I deny the piece of hardened bread that twenty of us shared? How can I deny my mother who expects from me a cup of sage tea? How can I deny our child who we promised a wedge of the sky? How can I deny Nikolas who was singing while they aimed to execute him? When I return we won’t have a lamp to light, we won’t know where to place our dream. We shall remain silent.
“Those people didn’t buy a car, did they Irv?” “They said they’d be back tomorrow, Mr. Torgerson.” “They won’t be back, Irv. They’ll go down the street to Pearson’s and buy a Mercury, maybe even a Lincoln, because you didn’t cinch that deal, Irv. You’ve got to cinch those deals, Irv.” “I do my best.” “Your best is going to have to get better, Irv. You call those people tonight and you get ’em back in here tomorrow. You tell ’em you’ll make a deal they’ll like, Irv. I want to see ’em sitting at that table signing things.” “They’re from up the river.” “You find ’em. You get ’em in here again. You sell ’em a Packard.” “I’ll do my best, Mr. Torgerson.” “I know you will, Irv.” The salesman turned back into the show room. Torgerson’s voice tracked him. “Irv, I just know you will.” Maybe it was because times were good, Torgerson thought, or maybe it was because the mayor job brought him attention, but Packard sales were up almost 20 percent over two years ago. A third of the way through his first term, he was mapping out his next campaign. Only I’ll really run, he thought. Last time was a fluke, I know that. Ken Spear, he’s the one who could take it away, but I don’t think he realizes it. Somebody will tell him. You can count on that, because a lot of people would like me out. I piss off too many of them. But, that’s what happens when you make waves in a little town. Torgerson looked up from his musing. Poodie James was passing in front of the window. Torgerson moved through the show room and out onto the sidewalk just as Poodie stopped his wagon and reached into the used car lot for a Coke bottle standing in front of a ’41 Ford Roadster. Torgerson charged over and stepped in front of him. “Get out of my lot,” he yelled. “Go on, get out of here. Go on.”
Il Pagliaccio With his pink face, his tardy pants, his perennially smiling lips, the pagliaccio* runs to the stage drawing an imaginary circle in front of kids who laugh especially when he pulls a kerchief out of his pocket, a green kerchief with no end and after he pulls three meters of endless fabric and focusing on the faces of the children the pagliaccio gets ready for his next act: he takes off his hat and turning it upside down he puts his hand in it and after three abracadabra he raises a snow-white rabbit in the air to the yelling and laughing kids as the pagliaccio, as happy as ever with his performance, disappears behind the big red curtain not forgetting his duty to the man, he once was, one who could reach the stars, who could transcend the flesh and touch the eternal, which, alas, he never did.
Chapter Eight The ringing of the alarm clock awakened Tyne. She opened her eyes to glare at the offending timepiece on the desk across the room. To heck with it. She closed her eyes and snuggled again into her pillow. Moe bounced from her bed and grabbed the clock to shut it off. “Come on, sleepyhead. Get out of that sack. Don’t you know what day this is?” Tyne forced her eyes open. Moe, standing in the middle of the room in her short nightshirt, stretched and yawned. “How can you sleep this morning? We’ve been waiting three years for this day.” She walked to the door to turn on the ceiling light. Tyne blinked and pulled the sheet up to shield her eyes from the sudden brightness. “What day … oh yeah, so it is. Our last day of training.” “You don’t sound very excited.” Moe grabbed her dressing gown from the chair and shrugged into it. “Believe it or not, I feel a little sad.” “Oh come on, Moon River. What’s to be sad about? We’ll still be at the Holy Cross if that’s what’s worrying you, and you’ll be doing what you like best – helping to cut people up.” Tyne got up, walked to the dresser and began to brush her hair. “I didn’t tell Curly when I saw her yesterday that I’m going to be working in surgery. I thought it would be like rubbing salt into the wound.” “That was good of you, but she’ll find out sooner or later. How’s she doing, anyway?” Tyne reached for her dressing gown. “Okay, I suppose.”
THE SEAGULLS FROM TRANSYLVANIA This thorough country called nature Lost breath of the heaven’s dragons And from the wide waters of the sea deep from the very beginnings, Even before the old Pannonian Sea Added its extensions here, Yes, this tenacious natural amphitheatre, Full of thick forests, Still silencing the Romans’ language, This Transylvania is Both the mountain shuddering with memory And the fairy tale of the eyes suggesting the morning, And especially the mild anxiety of some seagulls, By their generations’ adage, Becoming smaller and more grey than their ancestors, Living signs of the millennia, Of the seas fatally squeezed into rivers, In whose name there is a constant whisper: The Someş, the Mureş, the Criş, the Criş, the Criş5 … How could I not have recognized, Even if I had not known what they were, The thin quest of these Transylvanian seagulls
Gravely questioning the waves of my Criş River And floating almost weightlessly, As the poplar’s seeds fall; Who can know if the absolute Is not the forgotten song Of the Transylvanian seagull?
Tenth Canto I discover eloquence in ash falling like opened wishes of thirsty lips and marking my share of urgency I retract the curtain to reveal an orchestra and chorus harmonies in celestial reverb with the dynamism of a faceless entity that dresses itself in crimson riding greed on some apocalyptic horse carrying conversion coercion assimilation proselytizing consequence of infidels the necessity of martyrdom which started in primeval depths of Miseria Dura the end justifying any means with colorful insignia of archons and beacons of lords and crests flying high potent cross banners unfolding speed to deep grooves and flattening the firm virgin’s breast the zealot’s façade transforms into wrinkled face of the moon over me standing on the steep-cut road indifferent to his imminent demise I witness a beheading and everything shifts right powered by a limited company acting as if controlling infinite growth as if reaching no end as the wise dandelion retains bitterness for blood virulence spread on faith’s path unflinching curtain asks the same question and the off-tune chorus answers: I can do better