Small Change

excerpt

His ears were still ringing with Christian’s wizardry when the
insistent clap of the brass knocker on the front door broke his concentration.
He was paralyzed for a moment, not knowing whether he should answer
the door or let whoever it was think that no one was home. While he was
considering this, he heard the door open. He turned off the Victrola and
made his way to the living room. His mother stood in the open door, her
arms crossed, her head tilted to one side, looking him over.
“So? What are you doing home? I thought you had choir practice
today.”
“I got out early.”
“How come?”
“Sister Rose…” he broke off and looked away.
“What about Sister Rose?”
He made a face.
“She said I wasn’t paying attention.”
Andrea watched him. He looked upset, resentful. She wanted to
know what was going on.
“So, were you?”
“Was I what?
“Paying attention.”
“Well, sure, kinda… “
She arched an eyebrow, surprised by his answer. It sounded
uncharacteristically inarticulate, evasive.
“Kinda?”
“Well, yeah. I knew what was going on.” He paused, peeked up at
her. “I was looking at the stained glass windows.
The light was coming
through them, they were real bright. Then I was looking at that new statue
of the Negro saint.”
“Hmm. I thought you liked choir.”
“Yeah, I guess I do. The singing part. But they’re so slow. They
can’t read and it takes them forever to learn one measly song.”
“Did you talk to Sister about it?”
“No.”
“Don’t you think you should?”
“Yeah. I guess. She knows already though. She just wants…
everybody to be the same, and we’re not.”
“Would you like me to talk with her?” Andrea was Vice-President…

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Yannis Ritsos – Poems, Volume IV

Maturity
Doubtfully, he says, vague, dark; I can’t make anything
out of them. The grass stirs. Old women shake off big,
black bed-sheets out of the windows. The milkman
urinates on the sidewalk. The limping man sharpens
his knife on the stone. Suddenly they lower the flags
from the embrasures. Big drums roll down the hillside.
The guards run away. “He’s crazy, they yell, crazy, crazy,
don’t believe him”. He runs, they chase him. “He was
drumming the cauldrons during the night”. The spears
gleam. Women raise their dresses, close their eyes. “Don’t
believe him”. And you don’t know whether they laugh or cry.

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Cloe and Alexandra

“Wish you the best”
What does the lover mean?
Most likely what’s best for him
since the circumstances,
those threatening monsters with the nine heads
clench their teeth.
Shamelessly
since that water diluted soup of excuses boils
better in slow fire,
without nostalgia,
as if one is to read a newspaper
with his legs up on a chair
he better undo his heavy
boots that always remember.
“I wish you the best” then.
Would have been better if he wrote:
“Sorry that I couldn’t?”

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Impulses

Unstoppable
Dutiful and without pause
he fights to shape
the undefined
tries to paint the achroous in
velvet azure and decrypt
what won’t conform to borders
childlike eyes
a pedestal holding up past glory
all perished dreams
but why the sculptor
creates a huge statue bronze
why he makes his hands
so large is he to embrace the
whole world and his legs why
so large is he to straddle the universe
and his genitals why so impressive?

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